How He loves Me, I Thank Him.

How do I seek the Lord? How do I seek the lord sincerely, with all my heart, body, mind, and soul? I sometimes feel as if I don’t know the answer to these simple questions. But I do. I seek the lord by calling him. I love my Jesus, who died on the cross for me, and everyone else in this world. I gave my life to him and him alone, though it pales in comparison to how much he does for me. I thank God for his grace and mercy, because it is the very reason that I am still here on this earth breathing, living, and loving.

God’s mercy, and grace is so awesome and it humbles me tremendously. Without it I would still be restless, feeling unloved and still searching. Walking aimlessly, searching for where my life needs to go, how to be the best me that society deems as successful and happy. Yes our society can be pretty accepting of any persona one chooses, or they call it a phase. That’s what I was trying to find, a persona. It was as though I was trying to shop around for something. I thought happiness and success was being free to do whatever I wanted and partying and living a good life.

I can say that, personally, I have never been so happy to be so wrong. Gosh, a happy and successful life is being free, but my definition of free then and now are completely two different things! I wasn’t free at all. I was just trying to do what everyone else was doing. I was trying to take a path that has already been trodden by  millions. I don’t want that. I have always been a person who wanted their own things, and I don’t see why that has to change. Living for Jesus, I am free. I am happy. And what makes me happy is surprisingly helping people. When I get tired, all I do is call on God and he’s there to give a helping hand.

Living for Jesus isn’t for the strong, the arrogant, the righteous, or the perfect. Its for the needy, the brokenhearted, the weary, the hypocrites, and the ones who are so far from perfect its not even funny. The ones who need him. And that’s all me. I am brokenhearted, I am weary, I am a hypocrite, and I am in need of my father in heaven. But mostly because I am so far from perfect and am constantly tempted to sin and give in to every kind of temptations that my flesh desires. I am a sinner and I am weak. But I am secure in the fact that God loves me, because He sent his only son to die for me and wash away my sins. To wash me and make me white as snow. To make me a new creation. There is not much I am sure of in this world. But even on my worst days when I feel about as high as the ground I walk on, I am sure that Jesus–no matter what–Died for all of us, and he did that because he loves us. I cant even wrap my mind around how, or why, but He did and He does. He does because He is LOVE. He wants whats best for us, even when we err so heinously, and we all do.

I just thank God for all He has done and given to me. I thank him for His continuous and unfailing love, for where I am in my life right now–even though sometimes it seems more bleak than anything. I thank Him for His grace and for saving my soul and just wanting me to be a light in this fallen world for others. I thank Him so much. I thank Him for saving me from eternal damnation and giving me everlasting life. Thank you Jesus. Please continue to help me and show me the way home, even though its a narrow part filled with all kinds of trials. I ask that you increase my passion for you daily, and let me continue to be a light for you in this world. I ask that you hold on to me and my family and friends and just keep us in your arms, anchored to you harbor of love. I ask that you keep us from drifting away to aimlessly crash against the tides that is this world. Father, you are the only Holy one and you have done so much for all of us. I thank you so much, father. Thank you. I pray that you continue to bless and hold onto the weary, the needy and the ones who are so far from perfect. In your name I pray, Amen.

The song “How He loves” by David Crowder Band, just puts into word what I have to be thankful for. He Loves Us. All of Us. God doesn’t discriminates. He Loves Us All–How perfect is he? So perfect.  Here are the lyrics which I got from AZLyrics (http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/davidcrowderband/howheloves.html):

 

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us, oh,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us, oh,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about the way…

He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us…
Oh, how He loves us…
Oh, how He loves us.